Tuesday, October 26, 2004

we didnt have classes today but we had to go to school otherwise. we just trained for our intramurals. i was supposed to help out setting up Red's grade school soccer team but as i was walkin towards the hallway, i fainted. [they just told me.] i woke up in pain and experienced quick stomache spasms that made me hurl. it was ugly. i tried to sleep after that coz i really couldnt handle the pain. where's a sleeping pill when u need one.

my batchmates are funny. haha! when i woke up, people were kidding around with me. vicky was sitting on my butt. errr.. it helped ease my back pain. no malice there. we know what we are and are sure of our sexuality. that's what's so fun about the whole thing.

chellee and dianne gave me a massage. i still owe D P50 bucks coz of that. services are hardly ever free nowadays. haha! it helped me get up so i guess it was worth it.

a dark cloud seemed to shine on me that afternoon. i just wasnt in the mood. i knew only football could make me feel better. i scored a goal. YEY? no... my game was really rusty. the "coach" didnt put me in after he took me out. it's not my problem anymore, it's his problem anymore. [HAHAHA! it's so Pia.. lmao!] he keeps prioritizing people who arent even in the team. he's just a puppet that is easily manipulated. it really pissed me off. donna explained to me everything though... how he cant say no to senior teachers since he's just practically new, how he cant go against parents' wishes coz that'll help sustain the team. rawr! if u ask me, i'd rather spit on their faces. but hey, school is school. that's how the system works... it sucks, but remember, everyone went through that so i hardly even feel sorry for myself. i just hate the way they run things around here. i thought it was supposed to be a healthy environment where we should practice BLAH BLAH BLAH... dont answer that.

all this hatred is making my head hurt. someone told me this morning it makes her feel as if she's seriously in NEED of man-loving. HAHAHAHA! grosse!!!!! but it made me laugh... it's nice to see people still have humor.

my body hurts, my body hurts. i still get nauseated when i see food. i cant eat, i cant eat. i WONT. i dont like my body... bt i can change that. i will change that. BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO DO SO.



leaving skool nothing to see here at 9:33 PM

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