Monday, November 08, 2004

i went to glenys' house because i felt like i had to.. like i NEEDED to. it's just one of those rare times when you feel like you're goin to explode and you just need to talk to someone. as in talk... i cant tell my other friends. they dont know. i cant tell him... he's the reason i'm all screwed up in the first place!

it's a pathetic sob story i know... but that sacred time was what i need to make me feel better.

i told the driver earlier that i wasnt goin to go out but the around 5 minutes later, i felt the urge to get out of the house and just run. but then i'm too tired, so i told him to go back. but the bastard didnt and went straight to shang to pick up my bro and his f-ing yaya. i was so pissed. i cant remember the last time i screamed on top of my lungs coz i couldnt BUH-Lieve he would have the guts to go against my wisheS. arghh

but i couldnt stay at home... the silence was driving me nuts... the loneliness was sabotaging my sanity. so i decided to go to her house, whatever it took.

it's official. I AM A BRAT! i'm just used to getting what i want... i even threw a fit coz of this... what is it with you glenys? is it your charm? your... ACK! KADIRI! tae yan.. haha! bad joke.

i rode a cab... errr... got scared, bit my nail after so long. eew! i was crying the whole time and the driver was speaking in english. oh man it was horrible. he said he wouldnt have said yes but he pitied me, that he wouldve charged more if i wasnt "pretty". he asked for a hundred bucks.. i gave him 2. he was just so nice. hahaha! that incident made me smile.

i said, salamat. then he went... ay pinoy naman pla eh. DUH! obvious kaya.

so i told her the rest of the "novel". haha! and she made me realize i was selfish... if he's goin for my friend, i'll back down but if he likes that other girl too... man i dont know! see... player... tsss! i remember saying if he's goin to choose between us [me and the OTHER girl...], god he doesnt even have to think!!! unless he wants to hear that shrilly voice of hers... he can indulge himself all he wants.

so anyhooo... glenys and i went to juts' house to watch mean girls. then i thought.. wow, what a coincidence coz gabby checked out his friendster pic and he said "he" looked just like aaron in the movie. [ayyy shet... DREw FULLeR pla, not him. hahaha! soh-ree!] then... the "you cant date your friend's ex" rule came up. so he popped into my mind, AGAIN.

i'm sick of all these f-ing signs. i wish i wasnt so observant. it's so not GROOL. haha! new word.
how FETCH! [oh look, there's another one.]

hahaha i'm beginning to understand why honnn like's this movie so much. LOL!

i think i'm finally getting over it. 4 days... not bad.

MOVING ON!!! FINALLY!!! so what's up everyone?? I'M BACK!!! and it feels great!!!
YEA-UHHHH!


leaving skool nothing to see here at 11:05 PM

{xoxo}