Monday, November 08, 2004

so yeah... we went to powerplant after hearing mass. we ate in kulinarya and can i jst say the food there is so scrumptuos.

my sisters and my dad watched the incredibles while i watched first daughter instead. i've already seen the former and i didnt want to REMEMBER.

my movie finished an hour before theirs did so i ended up goin around the mall since 9 pm. i was trying to recall where it all happened. i was looking for a certain store and i couldnt find it so i kept on walking. then i spotted it.. oh man, kaiyak. i was alone, confused and bothered with noone to vent out to. it's just so unfortunate.

un nga.. sa shoe shop, then in people are people. we went straight and went downstairs and he checked out the car display. then we went to chibo using the route goin to starbucks...

STOP IT!!!

i just found out awhile ago he also liked this other girl coz of her friggin ATTITUDE. but how would you feel when all the signs led to you? if he made you feel like it was only you in that crowded room and nothing else mattered.. he even said it was me... fuck it! i was deceived... i should've known but i bought it.

i was awakened that night. i felt what i probably hoped of feeling before but i just didnt know til then. now i realized everything was a mistake. and i just want to hit my head to forget. yes, now i want to forget. i dont think it'll ever be the same... i'm not sure if i want it to.

i dont like it when people mess with my head. i feel like a total idiot. maybe i have always been. screw the moron.. "i am just a hopeless romantic, people tell me i should go for you coz we're good together" and waaaay before he said that, he mentioned " this is my only comfort zone, when i'm with you". i never saw that as "something".. i was just happy because at least now.. a FRiEND thinks i am a good person, that people can trust me with anything. when he said "we help each other in a *i forgot* way... and that's always good", i thought... damn boy you're so cheesy but inside i felt butterflies. i didnt get it. not until marla made me realize that i probably liked him from way back... i just didnt know.

that doesnt even make sense!!! but then in a way, it does.

AYOKO na... i dont want anything to do with him... why? because even though i loathe him so much right now... the feelings are still there. the feelings.. blergh!! so new and yet so destructive. today's the 4th day ...................


leaving skool nothing to see here at 4:43 PM

{xoxo}