Saturday, December 18, 2004
i usually end up staring at the ceiling for hours most nights, days even... i have no idea why i suddenly lost the need for sleep. i eventually wake up, belly exposed and stiff, not knowing what happened or what time i actually dozed of.
most times i make up scenarios in my head... of things i want to happen, things i long to happen. but they're all surreal so i think of other things instead.
why do they like me? everyone knows i'm not pretty
why do i look like a boy?
why didnt i get the genes?
how come people indulge themselves in love when i obviously dont have time for it?
why do i deny that i am capable of loving when i know i long to do so?
who is the guy?
am i making the right choice?
why dont i run as fast anymore?
i wish i live in makati.
i wish i study in ac.
i wish i was a boy.
am i really that ugly?
why am i even asking when i know i'm not?
why do i waste my time?
why do i like you?
why dont you like me?
where do we go from here?
i hope i get in ateneo.
why dont i get geom?
why do i love AP?
i hope i become a better football player.
i wish i'd look like a girl............... *sigh*
why do i always want something/ someone i cant have?
i hope my brain shuts down when i want it to.
eto na... HAHAHA! bakit masarap ang bawal?
i want to sleep.
WHY ON EARTH DO I THINK SO MUCH?
leaving skool nothing to see here at 11:35 PM
{xoxo}
