Monday, December 13, 2004

sometimes when you're pretty sure you made a connection, it really sticks to your gut.

you notice the smallest details... like when you use the same words, perceive things in the same manner or when that person puts to writing the thoughts you cant assemble and yet he manages to make it clear. but then it's still vague.

maybe i'm just delusional. i give meaning to what i see and hear when the other party isnt aware of what he is doing.

i lost whatever feeling i had last saturday when i got disappointed with the lack of... shown affection? but was it even necessary? hmmm... p.c. is always good. HA-HA.

it was the first time i got bothered that someone seemed afraid of me. HAHA! i have been too bold, too frank.

glenys asked me if i was sure of whatever this thing is... feelings: an effing damned mind-set. i honestly dont know. i just like the drive it gives me. it's probably meaningless... i know. i dont know. rarrr... i am so confused. does this make me motivated or am i driven on my own?

i dont need you... but i want you. not really. i just feel light when i say it.
hmmmmmmmmm... do i ? do i? you tell me.

i'm beginning to believe confusion releases endorphins. i just laugh at myself. people come to me when they have problems and i seem to say the right things. i just happen to give them the answers.. but why can't i help myself.

maybe it was never meant to be like that... we need someone else to help us see things at a different perspective. i have too much of it...

so i guess it's for everyone and noone in particular when i say:

i've got what you need. i can help you with what you seek. i can be your medicine.

i hope you'll say the same for me.

leaving skool nothing to see here at 11:05 PM

{xoxo}