Tuesday, February 15, 2005
has anyone seen my soul?
i scored two goals today. it would've been more had i not screwed up so many times. i would normally be all giddy and 'happy' but i cant get myself to celebrate. i would smile and laugh, sing and dance even but that doesnt mean i am in a good mood. i will cry and sympathize when you feel bad but that doesnt mean i too am in pain. this is just how i show that even if i dont understand you, i care. how could I? i dont even understand myself. dont ask me how i feel or why i'm like this. dont ask me who's causing it... lord knows i wont admit it. i dont know what happened or how it happened... it just did, i changed. i'm sorry for the people who got hurt during the transition, i never meant for that to happen. i am frank... to the point of unnecessary babbling which is now reduced into subtlety. i used to be worse.
i am numb as ever. and it bites... i think i lost a friend.
currently feeling: resentful
sucks to be ignored...
leaving skool nothing to see here at 11:15 PM
{xoxo}
