Sunday, April 17, 2005
cinemas have had enough of me.
I want you to be free.
Don't worry about me.
And just like the movies,
we play out our last scene.
You won't cry,
I won't scream.
----Movies- Alien Ant Farm----
i've been getting around a lot lately; with football training everyday except on mondays, i have the driver to myself. alabang, makati, edsa, laguna, katipunan, antipolo... name it. yes, all in one day. i've been watching movies... with or without company. it's so much better than staying home. for some reason i find delight watching what's on the big screen. i enjoy even the dullest films. i guess it's just me or every aspect screams for a paradigm shift. i've been in and out of malls, running through parks and fields, parties here and there... searching, just searching for that certain something. it's like being in a mall and having the urge to buy something new yet you dont know what that thing is specifically so you end up exploring the whole place. but as expected you dont find what you're looking for because... you dont know what it is.
i dont see anything wrong with it though. it's like trying on clothes. you try a lot to see which one fits. you try on more until you find that certain something, that one special thing that makes you look and feel so perfect. and when you do find it... you're immediately pampered, you feel the world revolving around you so you trick yourself into believing that you can actually get used to the treatment. suddenly you two are inseparable. then reality hits and you realize it doesn't really make you happy... that's it's not exactly what you want, what you need. it's funny how i sympathize with idealists... like if it's not a necessity, it can wait. if it's really meant for me... it will still be there when i come back. and i'm not just talking about clothes... i'm just not up to settling for less. i refuse to fall short. so the answer is NO. i'm sorry.
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most people didnt appreciate Finding Neverland but i loved it.
time is running after us all...
i must keep pretending.
i had a great time watching The Wedding Date. go figure.
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miguel: no dear, not in this lifetime.
baraquiello: i belong in a world that's not meant for me. *sigh*
miguel: off to the convent, then... now!
baraquiello: and waste my good looks? no way.
miguel: clever.
[insert laughter here]
two can play this game.
leaving skool nothing to see here at 10:15 PM
{xoxo}