the excitement is rising, all the lights go out. we go on anyway. the path was clear, the water is dripping, we all held hands just to feel safe. we took one step at a time, walking together, basically just trying to get the best out of everyone. i decided to separate from you for a while to look for something. i was practically blind, running alone with pebbles clicking on my shoes, slipping one too many times. afraid though not quite, i just kept going. with my head faced down for fear of what i was gonna see, i didnt know what was ahead. then out they went... 2 ladies in white, i thought i was gonna have another attack but i didnt. i got whatever source of light i could and guided myself back to my destination; anything to get my mind off my current dilemma. misguided, confused, betrayed and just 100% angry... you would be too if you find out about WHAT I KNOW. i was soaking wet, you can see right through... my sheer shirt, a wrapped silhouette, and a non-existing heart. everything was not in place. i felt so frustrated i wanted to cry but i knew i had to be strong, at least for both of us. i bled profusely... i didnt want it to stop. i looked destroyed, we all did. i felt naked in your arms but that hug made me feel so much better. with liver gackt on our faces, mud on our feet and god knows where, tears in our cheeks... victory was never this sweet.

pat my back and tell me i'm alright. guide me up the stairs when i'm already too unconscious on my dirty pops. pop! pop! crackle and POP! once you start, you can't stop. so addicting, it's the perfect escape. so wrong yet there's no other alternative. it took an effect and everything came down from there. i still dont remember anything. gah. if all else fail i'm gonna make that my refuge. throw in four... chew then swallow. there are no limits... you can have more. i'm willing to share. at least you'll have company when you feel like there's no better way to die. then here comes the hard-knock... you wake up in the morning with no memory of what happened. all you have are pieces of the puzzle. they tell you every single detail but you dont wanna hear it. i dont want to hear it. i'm not stable enough to know what i did. pain may be the fuel of passion but i just want to forget. take in seven, mix it with liquor... dont expect to wake up... ever. i sleep to escape reality but then reality catches up with me in my dreams. curses.

i've got it all figured out but i never got the chance to do what i came for. you ran as far away from me as you could... you didnt even say goodnight. so i laid down under the night sky, with the bonfire to keep me warm. i saw 3 shooting stars. this time... i didnt even bother to make a wish.

she loves you now... hence, another girl in your list.