Monday, May 09, 2005
low-down of what's inevitable, yet impossible.
mmm... didn't it ever make you guys wonder that in one invitation to go on a gimmick i'm always up and scrummaging my stuff for something to wear, always game if allowed and 100% willing to go even if it were out of town but when it comes to calling Assumption to inquire about books... i never did it? that's because the reality of going back to school makes me want to vomit!!! don't get me wrong... i love A.A., with all its trees and primitiveness. i love my batchmates but i cannot put into words how much i loathe schoolwork. gah. it's excruciating.
i talked about future plans with the parental units last year and they agreed on me taking a gap year, destination SPAIN! ohyes. but now that i think about it... i have no idea when to squeeze that in. should it be on my supposed- freshman year? now.. of all times? i dont think i'll enjoy being blockmates with the lower batch but that's besides the point. i guess it just hit me that i'm NOT READY for anything academic yet. no siree. i know i can do it. it's just that... I DON'T WANT TO.
i have a list of stuff i want to do, things i want to achieve and i just cant help but feel that school is getting in the way of those aspirations. screw the future. i live for NOW! coz now is all i have.
leaving skool nothing to see here at 10:35 AM
{xoxo}
